Where do I go from here?

I have offically hit rock bottom. All I can do is go up from here, just not quite sure how. I keep asking myself what I did to deserve this and I keep coming up empty handed. This is all just so very unfair. Not only to me but to Kaden more than anyone. I just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs, but I know that wouldn't do any good. In the end I only want one thing. Him. But it just doesnt look like that is going to happen.


~A